My sister moved back in; the oldest one. Since she's been back, we've kind of started bonding, which is cool because I've never felt very close to her. She has problems, though. I know a lot about her that I'm not supposed to know. We all know about her dad, who is different than my other sister's father. He was a crazy abusive drunk who left her early, before she was even three or something. My step mom tells me she's so much like him when she's not around. She fights the worst out of my sisters, too, I think.
My younger sisters' father adopted her when she was about seven and he got with my step mom. My dad told me that when the other girls, his own kids, came into the picture things became different. He'd buy them top notch shit and get her a hand-me-down or something like that. They said it was really obvious as to who he cared for more. And I can't imagine what all that can do to a kid.
The weird thing is that she's super bubbly most of the time, but I feel like it's not really true.
A few months ago, she was living with this guy who was fucking terrible to her and she got pregnant and came to my step mom to ask what to do. My step mom said it wasn't her choice to make and my sister went kind of insane and got an abortion. I only know that because my dad told me about it and told me that better never be me.
I keep thinking over and over and wonder what that must feel like. I can't even imagine. I try not to look at her when people bring up kids or abortions or things like that. I pretend like I don't hear it because I know that in the back of her head somthing goes off.
Anyways, I'm happy we're gettin closer.
the more that you fear us, the bigger we get
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